life - by Ana

today i went to SGI (Soka Gakkai International) with Aunty Jen, well it was a wonderful meeting =]
Ana gave us a talk and she told us about what she had gone through for the past 60 years, and i was so impress by her.
she's a tough old lady!!

so, someone asked her a question about "expectation" and "hope" today.
people always get confuse between expectation and hope.
expectation is something you want in return, in the other hand hope is something you encourage yourself to get it..
still confuse??
haha, in the beginning i was confuse as well until Ana explained =]

she told us her "N" years ago story, talking about how she was abuse and torture by the government, how she escape from the jail and how hard her life was after she escape.
she said sometimes she even thought of killing her self!! @.@"
can you imagine how dark her life was?!
what a poor lady ='[
thank god!! someone try to pull her out from the darkness, but Ana did not trust anyone during that time, especially BOYS!!
but, luckily that girl was so nice, she was so patient..
she encourage Ana, and she tried to convince her to join SGI from 1 people to 5 people, slowly to a group and now can you imagine Ana is standing in front of 100 people giving a talk!!
WOW.. is really amazing..
Ana put hope in herself, and that's how she's still alive.
http://www.blogger.com/post-create.g?blogID=4446449893726095789#
to sum up, the more you expect, the more you disappoint.
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after the lovely talk, shopping time XD
today we went to the city, the shopping complex in Aussie is damn different from K.L..
we went to Target again, finally i found my baseball jacket and my mickey mouse sweater =]
bought a betty boo t-shirt for LaiYee and a pair of earing for Carmen..
OMG i forgot to buy my sleeveless.. hmm going back on Monday XD

guess what?! i broke a bracelet while looking one of the bracelet for LaiYee..
LoLx, i run like hell after i broke it XD
i really don't wanna pay for it although it's $15..
hahaha anyway hope they don't recognize me!!

result day!!

the result was out, and.. it's just like what i've imagine earlier~~~
terrible..
i need 1.5 - 2 more points to hit my target, but i just couldn't do it ='[
isit because i checked my result while "pupu-ing" in the toilet? that's why the result is bad? (i know my joke is not funny)

anyway, i'll do it again when i go back to K.L
this is not what i want, this is not my level!!
i know i can do much more better than this, YEAH i can..
so, besides the sad result, i bought myself a $40 oxford shoe and a $5 superman tee-shirt =]

LoLx, looks like i'm enjoying huh??!
yes yes, i do. i am enjoying myself here, cause i couldn't get any shirts or pants in K.L because of my lovely fucking size and height XD
but now i can wear M size tee-shirts here, SUPER COOOL =]

Bought a present for Carmen and received my early 21st birthday present from E-Ma XD i hope Carmen like her present, cause i really have no idea what to buy for her coming 19th birthday, and as for LaiYee, still looking!!
i wonder what can i get for her..
she's a very...(i have no idea) so it's not easy to get a thing for her, especially 21st birthday present..

well was talking to LaiYee just now, i asked what she wants as her birthday present, and she asked me back the same question..
LoLx..
seriously, i have no idea what i want!!
perfume, watch, bags, accessories.. err totally no idea =[
by the way what can you get me?! hahaha.
she said she wants a Carlorino bag, and i was like WHAT CARLORINO AGAIN?!!!
ain't tired of carlorino, keep carlorino.. hahaha
i think i gonna get her a purse, cause her purse SUCK!!

well well, we'll see how, tomorrow going down to city to SHOP again XD
hopefully i can get something unusual for LaiYee.. =]

WAITING..

IELTS is over..
and now i'm waiting for the result to come out..
i'm super nervous. i don't think i did well ='[
and i think i'm going to fail for the exam..
haiz..
uncle Lawrence putting too much hope on me, he expect me to get band7..
WTF, you think i'm what??
my english is not that good, and i don't think i can even get band5
1 word "WORRY"

relationship? nah..

a lot of people ask me this question..
"do you have a boyfriend?"
NO, i don't have a boyfriend.
but why? you so pretty sure have boyfriend one..



LoLx, is there anything to do with pretty and boyfriend?? @.@"
pretty = got boyfriend??
got boyfriend = pretty??
what kind of philosophy is this??
hahaha..
well i really don't understand, they never see me before how can they judge me by picture?? -.-"

anyway talking about boyfriend..
i really never though of getting back in any relationship.
it's so tiring, every single day have to worried about him, wondering what he's doing, is he feeling well, did he eat a proper meal, who is he hanging out with, and so on...
this kinda stuff, really makes people headache.
the most scary part is when i suddenly become the third party..

having a boyfriend is not an easy thing, it's like having a baby.
you have to plan, to decide, to calculate, and bla bla bla..
so many stuff to do.

i really don't wanna put my life in a risk, getting hurt for 4 times is more than enough =D
and i really wanna enjoy my lonely life.
err not really lonely, at least i still have my friends =]

talking about friend..
i'll continue it tomorrow..

IELTS exam

IELTS exam is like 5 more days from now @.@"
and i'm still playing and relaxing..
wootz, this is not goood!!


big smile on face, pretending to be calm.
but honestly i'm scared like hell ='[
wishing for miracle, praying for miracle..
hopes that there's really a MIRACLE =]

i wanted to shout and say "I CAN DO IT"
by the way can i really do it?? ='[

boooring =.="

what's the point of saying "i'm FREEEEEE"
LoLx, it's meaningless to me by now.
too much freedom, until can't breath!!

everyday repeating the same routine..
eat, sleep, watch movie, sleep, eat, go "pupu", Facebook, Twitter..
LoLx..
really meaninglesssss.
i need something fun, i wanna make my day looks colourful..
WOW, how awesome..

this is human (fan jin)..
when they get to have fun, they "complained"
when they are super busy, they "complained"
everything also must "complain" baru happy =.="

anyway what i can do now is blogging and posting comment..
and what the others can do is to wait for my post and click "like"
how amazing =D

stupid lifessss...

令人清醒的话语

1.永远没有一个人是你离不开的，现在离不开的，不代表永远离不开。没有什么是你放弃不了的，你不放弃的,可能会先放弃你也说不定。



2.对付虚伪的人，不是骂ta，不是拆穿ta，而是让ta继续悲哀地虚伪着，然后装作什么也不知道。那么慢慢地，很多人会主动跑来告诉你ta有多虚伪。



3.对付自私的人，不是恨ta，不是不理ta，而是渐渐远离ta，从心底远离ta，然后装作什么都不知道。如果ta去找别人，那么你会发现，很多人都远离了ta。



4.除了父母，没有什么人是不求回报的。恋人对你好是以爱情和谐为前提的，朋友对你好是以共同利益和消除寂寞为前提的。另外的人，就更不用说了。



5.一个人生活虽然很难，但也必须学会一个人，不要轻易依赖别人。这是为了防止你身边的人都离开的时候，你还可以好好活下去。



6.生病的时候，自己要重视自己，不能等着哪个谁来重视你。等到那时候，你会发现自己不管是身体还是心灵都已经很难受了。





7.要学着多和父母联系沟通，要学着多听长辈的话。要学着忍耐，没有什么是你忍不了的，别人再错，也犯不着拿别人的错误惩罚自己。



8.别人和你说的话，不管出于什么初衷，能信但不能全信。但是，别人说的时候，尽量认真听，仔细回应，这是对人的尊重。



9.不要轻易试探你的好朋友，要不你不是很失望，就是多了个“神经病+想太多”的帽子。



10.不要轻易对人多愁善感，就算你是真的多愁善感。别人可能不能理解你的多愁善感，也没这个义务和责任。这样的话，你想的发泄就变成了自取其辱和加深痛苦。



11.在任何状况下，不能玩弄别人，玩人必被人玩。你再有心眼，也不是最厉害的那个。





12.不要去抢属于别人的利益，但也不能纵容别人抢自己的。这是原则。





13.没有必要去嫉妒别人.原因有五：

1，别人可能真的付出得比你多，只不过你没看到。

2，这些东西只能带来一时的满足，而不是永久的满足，不要也罢。

3，这里面有你玩不来的游戏规则，玩的来的人也都挺累的。

4，你有不如人的，就一定有比别人好的，静待时机。

5，不争抢这些，你的朋友会更多。



14.能帮助别人的，尽量帮忙。不能帮的，别勉强自己。



15.对于喜欢和你对着干的人，首先要客观的反省自己，改正自己，消除自己的原因。其次，看清楚ta是多么幼稚，让ta一个人不开心好了。



16.对于和自己生活习惯不同的人，把距离拉远一点，然后各自活各自的，不影响别人，也别要求别人改变。



17. 恋爱11条:

1.对待爱情，要客观的看。你们在一起，不一定要有一个目的和目标，未来是未知的。不要嚷着别人什么都对你负责。

2.不要为了摆脱寂寞，轻易在一起，要对别人的真心负责，要让你的爱对得起良心。

3.对待恋人要信任，要不就别把他当恋人。



4.既然是因为爱在一起的，就认真经营这份感情，付出能付出的，结果不重要，善始善终。

5.对于暗恋般的感情，没把握就别去捅破，时间久了，你就看淡了，成长了。

6.你爱的人也是普通人，懂得原谅他们犯的错误，懂得接受他们指出你的缺点和不足。

7.男生不要轻易说出与承诺有关的话，女生不要轻易做需要别人承诺或负责的事。学会在某种程度上，保护好自己。

8.面对别人不素的表白，耐心的倾听，不接受但尽量少的伤害别人。

9.即使爱的火热，也要给自己和对方一个空间，让你们看得清楚，活得自在。

10.对恋人的父母长辈朋友，表现地敬重而虚心。这是一个有素质的人该做的。

11.分了手，就别去打扰彼此的生活。见了面，不要苦大仇深，大方地笑一下...





by特木薯