Bad Day.. [[18sx]]

p/s: sorry that this post is full of emotional, and vulgar words.
if you can accept then read it, if not please leave. thank you

i was waken by Carmen early in the morning today.
thanks Carmen!!
had breakfast with her at the market, the weather was not friendly this morning ='[
it seems like something is going to happen, well who cares?! i just wanna enjoy my lovely breakfast.
later then we both went home, it was still early, so i went to sleep again while waiting for my dear kelvin =]

later at 3pm, 3 of us went to BTS,
i starting to hate this shopping complex, i don't know why i just HATE it.
unfortunately i have to author my jeans so i'm force to go there.
everything was running smoothly until i finished my movie, Pirates of The Caribbean.

the other day when i told Albert that i wanna quit the job, he asked me to go back to collect my salary.
so today i called him for a few times, and i even SMS him, no reply at all.
so i went to the shop straight away just to collect my salary, he wasn't there the first time, after we came out from the toilet finally he was there. then i went in to collect the money from him.

HIS LOOK!! his fucking look was so annoying..
he's the one who asked me to collect my money, so i went to collect and he showed me temper, WTF?!
YOUR ATTITUDE WAS NOT IMPRESSED AT ALL, ESPECIALLY YOUR FUCKING LOOK.
DO YOU THINK YOU CAN SURVIVE WITH THIS KINDA ATTITUDE NOWADAYS?!
we are your workers, not your slave~~~
don't think that you are the boss, so you can show me your asshole look.
YOU'RE NOT QUALIFY AT ALL..
go back to J.B and show your faces there, THIS IS K.L!!

http://www.facebook.com/pages/Tamiko-FashionSutera-Mall/164522163557858?sk=info
i'm gonna kick your ass off.
work for the whole day, you just pay me the part time money, what about my commission??
you ate my commission??
so what if i only work for a day, I STILL WORK WITH BLOOD AND SWEATS

ASSHOLE SHOP, don't ever go there.
the things they sell, and the things they earn is more than 100%
"BLACK SHOP"
FUCK YOU TAMIKO FASHION! FUCK the boss as well..
eats people's commission, *PUI* o0o

J.B "lang" really J.B "lang", so fucking JiBai..

after since this fucking thing happened, everything was not perfect anymore.
went for dinner at "Kim Garry", the noodle i ordered... ...there was a hair in the noodle.
WTF?!, i have no idea whose hair was that, it might be the chiefs' or the cockroach @.@"
LoLx, the waitress said that she'll change another bowl of noodle for me, end up rinse the noodle with water and pour the hot soup for me..
hahaha, what's the different??
idiots..

touch ♥♥

i watched this video this morning, and i cried.
WTF, what a story?! although it looks fake, it still inspire me and made me realize something.
in life, we don't have to look for rich people to married.
AS LONG AS THEY LOVE US, that will be MORE THAN ENOUGH!!
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so today 27 May, it's Joey's birthday =]
HAPPY BIRTHDAY GIRL
so i saw her wrote on her Facebook wall "Discharge from the hospital", WOOTZ, she scared me..
my hearts feel bad for her, wanna call and asked her what happen but in the end i just commet "get well soon". WTH what are you thinking YiTong?!
she used to be your best friend, you didn't even call to ask??

well in the end i called, it's like few minutes ago, called to wish her Happy 21st Birthday..
hmm, both of us have no topic to talk, kept silence for few seconds and then only i asked about her surgery..
thank god it's just a minor surgery, she's fine now, just insomnia because of the wound ='[
pity her, suffering on her big day.
everything will be fine after a few days, be patient =D
hmp, i find that both of us have a really big gap between us, it's good too.
anyway GET WELL SOON =]

i never know that fake smile could be so beautiful.

how's my new hair look? do i look pretty?
am i getting girly? do i look like a "real" girl now?!
LoLx..
look at my SMILE, so big and FAKE..
yes it is a FAKE SMILE, a real fake smile.
i just don't know how to smile anymore, can anyone make me smile?
CAN YOU?!

every time you called, really pissed me off.
i'm sorry that i'm being rude and showing you my temper, but excuse me can you let me make my own decision for once?!
i really wanna do the right decision and not the one you do for me!!
please, i'm old enough to use my brain to do a right, wise decision.
i'll be responsible for what i did, this is only the right way to let me grow and be independent, NOT ASKING ME TO GO MELBOURNE TO STAY ALONE..
that doesn't help at all..

everyday putting pressure on me, asking me to score 8.0 for IELTS.
why why why?? my english is not that good.
even 6.5 is a problem now!!
i'm going crazy, really crazy..
you even made me feel like saying "FUCK OFF you idiot, stop putting pressure on me"

hey, i know my level.
i know what i want.
it will be great if you give me advice or opinion, but please DO NOT ASK ME WHAT TO DO.
you wanna ask yet you wanna choose, so what's the point of asking??
since you don't even respect my decision, it's better you make the decision for me, and fuck off =]
i'll be grateful for that!!

BLAME BLAME BLAME..
every time blaming without fail, you don't even respect me!!
scolding me "STUPID LA YOU" in front of hundreds of people, I'M A GIRL, I HAVE PRIDE!
have you ever thought of my feeling??
that day, you really made me HATE you, you were lucky that that day wasn't my birthday, otherwise I DON'T KNOW WHAT WILL I SAID.
it may be something really bad, i can't promise..

in you eyes i might be a "tofu" girl, but sorry to say I'M NOT!!

p/s: i'm sorry that i was being rude about complaining and using so many vulgar words. I REALLY CAN'T TAKE IT ANYMORE..

SORRY that i'm imperfect

days by days, months by months, years by years..
till now i still couldn't clarify who am i to you, have you ever thought of this as well??

we had been hanging this relationship for almost 4 years.
not up yet not down,
i just want to play a small role in your life.

there's always bittersweet when i text with you,
the way i asked and the way you answered was really funny, and you made me =D
but whenever it comes to that "QUESTION", you really make me ='[
i hate myself for being fat,
i hate myself for being huge,
i even hate myself for being so TALL!!
because of my stupid height, we couldn't be together.
isn't that if you really like a person, you wouldn't care so much about it??
LoLx..
how stupid it is..
hahahahaha.. (crazy laugh with tears)
SORRY that i'm IMPERFECT,

sometimes you made me confuse..
you said you like me too, but do you really like me or you just wanna make me happy??
to me this isn't a beautiful lie,
IT HURTS..
if you never like me before, you should have just turn me down or ignore me.
don't make me misunderstand caused i really like you, i even fall in love with... ... YOU

i'm leaving soon,
wonder how's your feeling,
are you happy or you're sad?
i wanted to know, I WANTED TO KNOW SO BADLY!!
how will it be after i leave??
you said that there's MSN, but can MSN preserve our relation??
i don't know, i really don't know.
i'm sorry..

i feel so lonely, lonely, lonely..
wish i could cuddle you right now,
well it's impossible =']

Tae Ho inspire me =]

when you look at the picture, what do you see or how do you feel??
do you find it touching and meaningful??
how many people in this world can actually life like this boy, Tae Ho?
i believe 2 or 3 out of 10..
so do i?? if me, i don't think i wanna stay alive..

Tae Ho is a 11 years old boy living with a crooked spinal, no arms and a pair of legs with 4 toes..
he is a korean boy who is very strong and independent..
change clothes, eat, prepare tooth brush for his siblings, all done by Tae Ho without any help from people..

how many of us actually do this for our loves one??
we have a pair of hand but did we ever fully used it? haha..
so why not we chop of our hands??
well..
i admit i did not fully utilize it!! shame on me

when i look at the video "ENG SUB 태호 이야기 Tae-ho's story" from youtube, i really feel so shame and shy. a 11 years old boy is more mature than a 21 years old girl, ME!!
i should learn from him, he's a role modal to everyone of us..
learn from mistakes, live like Tae Ho =]
LoLx..
really really speechless..

here's the video, feel free to click and watch!!

TAMIKO

i got an offer yesterday from TAMIKO..
i accepted the offer, i went to work today =]
everything was fine, except for the "so call lou ban leong"..

i don't mind working like a maniac, standing all day long.
but excuse me, i did nothing wrong, your boyfriend came to ask me about work stuff,
why are you getting mad and showing your fucking faces??

I QUIT!!
so please keep your fucking face off me..


my tired look, after 9 hours of working @.@"

well well, after today i find that my promoting skills is still here XD
good job YiTong..
haha!!

my 21st birthday ♥♥

had lots of fun today =]
my friends celebrated my 21st birthday at the curve!! received lots of lots of present, hahaha.
feel so bad, for them to come with a present.
by the way thanks guys!!
i LOVE it so much..


we were having dinner at T.G.I Friday, then after the dinner we hop to The Apartment..
haha it was amazing =]
took a lots of pictures with my friends.