people around me..

well, i feel something is changing..
i'm like so far away from my friends, and i'm wondering why is this happening to me??
haha,
is it because my chinese sucks?? i cannot communicate with them?
or is it because i'm not popular enough?
or is it because i can't give any thing to them?
or it is because i'm poor?
or it is because bla bla bla.. so many stuff..

although i can't give them all the above things that i mention,
but i'm very sure that i gave 99% love, care, help, and everything i can to all of them..
1% more for improvement..
but..
seems like there's no one bother about me..
so okay..
erm..
maybe it's my way of communication,
or the way that i express myself was wrong.
well,
i admit that i was angry and jealous at first, because my close friend joined some other person..
and that time i was so lost, and i even think of stupid ways to SNATCH them back..
but now, NOT anymore..
because i got WISDOM >____<"
LoLx..

i learn so many things this few months..
for example, you can never have a person with you forever..
human changes every time..
they will have their partner soon..
well i told my mom about this, and she was like "huh, how come you like that..."
LoLx..
good question maa..
i pun don't know why am i like that..
JEALOUSY..
anyway i'm not like that anymore..
so maa don't worry anymore..


and this few month, i keep talking to myself telling and reminding myself not to be or not to do like that.
for example, never say how much you have give to other, and never ask people to payback for what you have GIVEN..
LoLx.

anyway wish me LUCK..
mwackzz