i'm so sick of myself and also you//!..

i really dunno what happen to me, i want everything to be prefect and different from other..
but i can't//!
all those shit things i did are just the same..
how to be different? how can my stuff be unique as my title "unique didy's blog"
i'm not special at all..
i just a nobody copying others style..
i hate myself and i really felt lost ( T____T )"
who the hell am i, where is didy??
what the hell i'm doing here..
u know all those question pop up in my brain??
how can i live happily or normally with this kinds of disturbance
( O_______o )"
no one will understand how i feel..
all you know is just asking:
"how many A's can you get this time?"
"your jiejie got 3A's for her exam, so how many you think you can get??"
and all i know how to answer you is that:
"NO, NONE OF MY SUBJECT GETS AN A!!"
well actually is not true..
i got A's for few subject, but what's the point of telling him??
he'll just say "it's so easy for you to score an A nowadays.. during those days bla bla bla..."
excuse me, you have already mention during those days, so why you still wanna compare now and last time??..
what's the point??
IT'S A PAST, just let it go..
and 1 more thing, i don't care about the "A"
all i care is what i've learn ( ^_____^ )
so please just let me do what i want and what i can//..
everyone has their own limit..
i'm not smart as you and i need more time to cope with the things..
just don't be so pushie please or adding pressure on me, if you continue to do so i'm afraid i'll die soon..

Freakin Sem "OVER"

At last i'm free ^______-"
look at my pic u adi know lorhx..
haha..
my freakin farkin bastard stupid sem is over... (^___^")V
haha..
gonna enjoy my holidayzz as fun as possible, if not i gonna suffer again on January @____@"
by da way college is actually not dat bad whn u have ur frenz around^____^"
well i do..
i have 18 babies around me..
-hong zai [hito da leader]
-avanny
-chloe
-7 zai [vince]
-5 gor [kian dai lou]
-sao lui [candy dai ga jie]
-Ling Lih [our GG gal]
-hui xian
-edwin [da leng zai]
-edmund
-san nee [amy]
-yuan ming
-mon peng
-zaible
-ah gong [da di]
-ah ma [xiao di]
-priscilla [our baby sitter]
-kk [GG king]



[some of thm went to prin their assignment]

u c guyss..
if u dun have ur frenz beside u, ur life will be black n white..
doesn't mean dat black n white is not good, butif there are colours isnt it better?//..
haha..
anywayz it depands..

No college..
life gonna be damn farkin bored coz cant go college take picz wif thm adi T_______________T"
well i really do enjoy takin picz wif u guys although i look fat n ugly @___@"
i dun mind..
juz wana enjoy, spendin time wif u juz worth it!!
haha..
hope tis frenship last 4eva although sometime quarrel happens..
but wat to 2 real fren will oni do dat!!
haha >___<"V

Deyn. SORRY

i really dunno y..
really no idea..

Deyn. so sorry fer puttin all da angers on..
but, u deserve it..
haha..
by da way i really wish i could change all da bad attitude..
it really SUCKZ..
it looks like im a mad person sometimes..
but thn i know it will never happen
so 4get it..

he CHANGED!!!..

OMG!!!!

he is so damn different frm da 1st time i c him which is 9 yrs ago...

farkin handsome,

but real life more handsome of corse..

haha..

well a guy which is blur blur, not dat smart n bla bla bla turns into a prince..

how cool man >_____<"

really "lam sei" lorhx..

haha..

_____________________

too bad..

duno y thr's still a big gap between him n me..

i wanna 4get da stuff dat i've done to him,

but thn "I CAN'T"...

T____T"

dun eva ask me why n wat i've done..

damn embarrassed!!

keep swmming in my brain..

"chi sin" gehx >.<"

duno he still remember anot nehx??!!..

btwn, if thr's a chance i wanna say sorry to him..

if possible i wish dat he 4get adi..

hahaha..

but not gonna happen i think..

aiz..

T_____________T"

the story of "young and old"

there was a guy name young, and the girl name old. they met each other thru friendster. they have so many topics to chat and slowly they become "pet brother and sister", everything runs so perfect. one day old feels weird, she think she might have a feel towards young, but she is not sure. all she do is just keep everything to herself, but doing this just make her suffer so she decided to tell young that she has a crush on him.
one night young called old, they were chatting a usual and than old tell young that she... she tot young is going to reject her, but luckily young feel the same way. they both likes each other. young is older than old, so whenever old is having a problem with her homework young definitely will teach her how to do. there were once old wrote her love story in her english essay homework, she told young bout it and it was quite embarrassing. this two couples were happy but not for long, they broke up after few moths because old said that she wants to focus on her study. old never gets happy after breaking up with young, but what she did is she msn young and chat with him and find out whether is he happy or not. well it's good to know that young is happy. after one year, old finished her exams and she still have the same feel on young, so she decided to take a try that couple up with young again. well young agree, but this time's they are not that close anymore. she feels that young do not have that kind of feeling. on day she tried to call young but he did not answer. old is doing the same thing for one month but young still haven't pick up any of her call. she was so sad and disappointed, and decide to let him go. she try to call young again to say "break up", at last he answered her call!! when she wanna give up that time, she only knew that young "kena" dengue>.<" she was so worried. the next day she called young to see whether is he recover, the same thing happen!! young did not answer her call again. well she knew this is the time she really have to let go, but she's not getting any answer for not picking up the call.
well, its not important to know why anymore.
she needs him, but he doesn't needs her. so what is the point of being together?
but until now, old is still doing the same old thing which is msn him to find out whether he's happy or not, and she finds out that young has a girlfriend already. she was sad at first but than happy, because it's good to see that he finds someone that he love and someone who loves him too. anyway who will like a person which is fat, ugly, stupid and useless like old? nahx.. no one, but old wish that young happy forever! the last thing in her mind is "i never regret that i love you, but i am really regret for letting you go in the first place!"

brunch at "ZIPANGU" (my full fool day)..

i ate toooooo much at "zipangu" today T____T"
now my stomach so bladdy distend..


fooodss..
thy are my life..
i juz lurve to eat..
summore my fav food ^______^" japanese food!!
yummy..

aiz..
too bad i ate too fas n too much..
looks like a gal hu juz came out frm da jungle..
now sufferin T___T"
i'm so stupid...
wuwuwu..

OYSTER..
MUSSLE..
SUSHIE..
TEMPURA..
BEEF..
COLD NOODLES..
MISO SOUP..
SALMON..
TUNA..
OCTOPUS..
wow all my fav food..
so, its not weird dat i eat so many..
haha..
by da way da food thr is so "la ku"
juz serve, not even 5 min..
all finish..
so gonna eat fas fas..
haha..

anywayz..
i'm not goin eat so much next time..
haha..

The Past "以前"..

i'm damn farkin curious bout this..

y u all juz lurve to say "last time" (以前)??

if dat thing is a sweet memory,

i dun mind..

lets share ^____^"

if dat thing aint dat sweet,

nono is not sweet at all..

seriously plz dun mention bout it!!

i hate it..

by da way..

y wana recall da sad farkin memories??

to tell me how bad, how naughty, how stupid, how lazy n bla bla bla am i??

juz stop dat..

i know myself more than u do..

n i dun need dat kinda memories >____<"

juz leave me alone..

i'm tryin really hard 2 4get it to start my new life~~~!!! @___@"

do u know how hard 2 get me 4get da stuff i've done??

now u reminds me again..

y y y??

y r u dat cruel??

do i eva mention about ur unhappy past?

no rite?!

______________________

hey guys..

"PLZ" juz stop tellin me my past..

i'm serious bout ths stuff!!

juz dun offend me..

i dun wana know, n i'm not interested in it..

so wat if u tell me??!

wat u expect me to answer u??

"hahaha, yalo yalo??!"

"errmm.. really i'm dat bad mehx??!"

"hehe.. nola dat time i'm still a little gal mahx!!"

this kinda stupid things??! @__@"

"sympathy"!..

PLEASE.. >______<"