Q&A

“Yoh Tong, you’re working already? Since when? What are you working as? Why? Oh.. Where?”

YES, I started working on last October. Working as a FREELANCE designer! Why freelance is because I want to build up my artwork and confidence. I’m working at PJU.

Dear family and friends, why must you guys keep questioning about my job? I know as a freelancer my income in unstable.. But think on the bright side, I get to work independently. Besides, I could build up my artwork as well.. isn’t that a good thing?

Maybe most of you can’t understand, but people, please give me a break! I know myself better..

“Will you find a proper job? When? What you want to do?”

Of course I will find a proper job with a stable income, who wouldn’t want to earn more? I promise, I’ll get a fulltime job before the end of august.. I don’t mind continuing to work as a designer, at the main time I would like to try something new and different. Something more extreme and excited! On the other hand, I’ll try to find what and who I really want to be. If possible, I want to do Masters =)

 

the most heart broken day..

its been a long time i haven't come to blog, can't believe today i come back and i'm blogging this..
yesterday i had this feeling asking me to see my friend's profile.. it seems like something is not right but i just can't tell what it is. so i just went to see her profile wondering how is she doing =)
as usual, after seeing the post then clicking on her pictures.. i just can't believe what i saw!
i was so hurt and disappointed, hands were numb and my heart was really broken.. wondering do you know what you're doing? 
kept asking myself how could you? how could you just give the present i bough for you to your colleague! moreover, for the exchange gift party? what the fuck.. 
i know that present is just a mug, but what did the mug did to you, or what have i did to you? how could you give that away? i need an explanation! I NEED EXPLANATION! did you remember where do the mug come from? have you forgotten who gave the mug to you? should i ask, HAVE YOU FORGOTTEN ME? 
maybe this is no big deal to you, anyhow is just a stupid mug, but what i can tell you is you had hurt someone that cared for you all these years! 
when the mug is on others hand, it means that there's no affection between us any more. 
our friendship has drown into the drain. my heart is dead! thank you for showing me your true colour, unexpected.

hello day 9 =)

DAY 9

learnt a lesson today!!
do not make a full stop when you are unsure..

i think most of the time, i just cut people off when i hear something i dislike..

or maybe sometimes i just make a decision of my own without double confirming with others??

it's really bad to do so.. (kids please don't learn, it's really annoying tho)

i really learnt a valuable lesson today, and i was so lucky that the customer accept the dish and they willing to pay for it..

although it's just a small matter, i swear that i will remember for life!!

p/s: dear friends who reads my blog, i am really sorry if i cut you off!! XD

hello day 7 =)

DAY 7

sara and felix called this afternoon, she told me that the results are out..

i'm so nervous, wonder what kinda result i'm getting..

wasn't doing well this semester >.<"

anyway today i worked for more than 10 hours..

gosh, i'm so tired..

just got back no long ago, today was so so busy even lunch and dinner!!

good for me, cause i can earn more =)

made myself a cup of horlick, yum yum.. miss it so much, reminds me of yilin!!

she always brought me to rain tree club for ice horlick.. haha

i'm getting better and better with the colleagues, ah win, amy, ah hao, kevin, dave, ah ling, boses, ah kit, jason, jasmine.. hehee..

but the uncle and the "4 ngan zai" hor, until now i haven't really talk to them..

wish i could blend in with them.. =)

i saw my result, it's not that bad..

all i can say is moderate!!

anyway, thank you gohonzon..

thanks for giving me the distinction =)

appreciated and unexpected.. haha

I LOVE YOU GOD!!

owh by the way, i just "ta pao" a bubur cha cha home..

hmm, not bad.. haha

thanks ah ling =)

hello day 6 =)

DAY 6

arghhh i skipped day 5, nothing much to blog bout yesterday tho..

so what about today, i was told by one of the customer that i'm their favorite waitress..

hahaha XD

and the request to take a picture with me, OMG i felt so anxious, yet happy..

never feel so love and respect before..

thank you my lovely customers =)

Kevin (the head chef) came to me and asked me to help him with his work..

i was like WTF?!!

are you sure? i'm not really good in english.. he said it's okay

so okay, i don't mind helping..

heheee

hello day 4 =)

i never received any tips before from anyone, this is the first time and i'm really HAPPY!!

i feel appreciate, at least i mean something to some people =)

thank you popo, i never expect to received anything from you, all i ever think of is to serve you in a good manner.. anyway thank you popo..

so, evonne paid me my tips today..

whao, i earned 20+ in 3 days.. so proud of myself, hehee..

guess what, alan told me that i look like his daughter whose now in America. LoLx, no wonder they treat me so good -.-"

anyway good too.. hahaa, at least i feel more like home.

today, ho sir is flirting with me!! aww damn you ho sir, you made me shy nia luu..

dai kah jie asked me, why i kept saying sorry, i was like err i dunno, cause i did wrong?? hahaa, they she asked is she that scary?? LoLx.. i have no ideaaa >.<"

anyway, good food good day.. i wanna stay here longer!!

weeee =)

i'm SICK!!

i should just came back from Mornington, but i was sick..

didn't get to go ='(

so sad..

between, i feel super bad cause Beatrice came half way and i call her to said cancel >.<"

sorry..

Sara baked me a lemon sponge pudding, yum yum..

so delicious =)

besides, she also left me short note, hmmm i feel so loved♥♥

Tze, Sara and i, the 3 sick babes went out for dinner due to i'm out of food..

haha, we went to supper inn a hongkie restaurant.. the congee they serve is so yummy..

too bad i can't taste it ='(

but i "ta pao" a bowl of congee home, just in case i'm hungry i have food to eat!!

before i end this up gonna show off my picture with the lovely note =)

hello day 3 =)

DAY 3

worked for 7 and the half hours today.. pheww what a day!!

today andy wasn't here, evonne(tau ke's sister) took over his place, she's kinda nice..

no i should say their family members are kind =)

even "tau ke kia" haha, he is so cute, keep helping me out on my first day.. hehee!!

today is not my day, i'm sick!! FLU + COUGH >.<"

Oh My the God.. so irritating, i have no mood for supper at all and now i'm hungry..

i had subway around 10PM and now gonna have a bowl of hot hot udon =)

yum yum, anyway i know i not gonna taste anything cause i'm having a terrible nose block!! ='(

i came home early cause it's not busy today.. and ah kit is here so they don't need so many people to work.. anyway good for me too cause i need to do my laundry..

spent $13 just to wash and dry my clothes.. FML

is more expensive than my dinner >.<"

anyway, gonna rest well tonight cause tomorrow is my rest day and i'm going to mornington peninsula with sara and beatrice..

heheee =)

hello day 2 =)

DAY 2

working at Straits of Melaka really fun, my colleagues are super kind.. i had 3 meals a day and during the end of work, sometimes my boss will make dessert for us.. hehee.

the best part is when we sit together and have dinner "bersama-sama" haha, it feels like home!!

Ho Sir, the kitchen man is so hilarious, haha we kept bully Jason, the dishwasher from honkong.

Jason is quiet, he don't really talk.. hard to communicate with him, but it should be fine i have faith in myself, we can be friends in a few days.. hahaha

so, yesterday was my first day.. i'm like a dong dong, did nothing right..

but today i'm consider a fully trained waitress =)

i did all the stuff well and i'm starting to take order, hehee.. it's not easy to introduce them the food cause there are about 80 kinds of food, and every time i went there i had the same dish..

hahaa, so i can't really recommend the costumes.. >.<"

my "tau ke soo" make "apam balik" for me to eat, OMG sooo the kind and it's super yummy =P

i wish i could have more but "tau ke" ate 3 pieces, boh bian.. haha

"tau ke" knew i'm a hokkien, he asked me to speak hokkien woth them but i feel pai se.. i feel rude >.<" but he said is okay.. oops haha okay then i'll speak hokkien with you guys =)

although working as a waitress is tiring, when the customers said thank you/ so kind of you it's like so worth!! all the tiredness gonee!! ehh i'm serious okay!!

guess what sometimes the "ang mos" will give $10 tips weih!! haha, not less..

i'm happy serving them and it's my pleasure to serve them good food =)

"tau ke" asked me when am i leaving, i told him soon.. he said he hope that i can continue to work for him.. LoLx it's just my first day and he already said that to me..

this shows that i really did well!! i'm really happy..

it a SUCCESS =)

anyway it's 1.30am i need to sleep now, i will continue my work tomorrow..

hwaiting Y.T!!

hello day 1 =)

DAY 1

work from 12PM - 3PM, then from 5PM - 10.30PM

1 word exhausted!!

working as a waitress really not cool, i have to do sooo many stuff including cleaning the foods after the customers ate..

eww >.<"

so disgusting, but no choice it's my job T.T"

when i look through the entrance door, i saw tze and beatrice..

they came to walk me home, everything is a worth!!

went home with them, they cooked me "ap tui mee sua" yum yum

so delicious.. haha

i love you 2 so the much!! =)

my new job =)

working tomorrow..

1 word, worried @.@"

i never work in a restaurant before, some more in australia..

this is gonna be something different!! >.<"

gonna gain lots of experiences..

but i have faith in myself, if felix and tsz yan can do it..

i can do it too!!

gambateh =)

i wanna be the best waitress!! hehee.

drenched

When minutes become hours
When days become years
And I dont know where you are
Color seems so dull without you

Have we lost our minds?
What have we done?
But it all doesnt seem to matter anymore

When you kissed me on that street, I kissed you back
You held me in your arms, I held you in mine
You picked me up to lay me down
When I look into your eyes
I can hear you cry for a little bit more of you and I
Im drenched in your love
Im no longer able to hold it back

Is it too late to ask for love?
Is it wrong to feel right?
When the world is winding down
Thoughts of you linger around

Have we lost our minds?
What have we done?
But it all doesnt seem to matter anymore

When you kissed me on that street, I kissed you back
You held me in your arms, I held you in mine
You picked me up to lay me down
When I look into your eyes
I can hear you cry for a little bit more of you and I
Im drenched in your love
Im no longer able to hold it back

i'm sure i know myself better..

submission finally over..
life is back to way too normal, i'm not used to it. i've been busy and hardworking like a cow for months suddenly having a break..
i feel weird.

people keep asking, you've been studying design for 4 years.. so where are you going to work when you come out from Uni??
i told them, i will work something different from design..
9 out of 10 of them surely gimme a look with full of question marks..
and they will start to say, isn't it weird that you study something that you never like for 4years??
yeah, kinda.. but not exactly, some subject i kinda enjoy myself..

if you asked me to sit in the office to do design all the time, sorry i can say that it's impossible..
i rather try to do something more fun and challenging..
although i still have no idea what i really want, as long as i try to work in any field i'm sure that i can do it..
nothing is impossible!! (my 4 years course is a very good example for myself)
it shows that i really try my best in doing it!!

some people who have their own dream, their own world the might have different opinion with me..
but honestly, have you step in my shoe and stand in my position to think for me??
you are a designer, you have your point.. i agree with you too
somehow i feel like you should think for me too!!

common, world change..
who said that we have to come out to work as what we have studied?? it's now different from before, no one bother to know what you capable with.. all they want is to earn money..
as long as you have the skills, everything is fine.

conclusion, i'm done with design..
no more design..
i had enough!! i need a break..
please leave me alone..

stronger..

every assignments you reject just make me get stronger..
mummy message me and asked me not to cry, i told her i'm not!!
there's nothing to be sad of, i know my lecturer is trying to help me..
so i must be strong, just do whatever i can..

time is not a matter, it depends on me..
am i willing to give it or not..
will i sacrifice my sleep for my assignments?? i guess..
YEAH, i'll do that!! =)

NO WORRIES YITONG, YOU CAN DO IT!!
i believe in myself, do you believe in me??

fingers cross

  

basically, the production is 90% done..
really hope that Shivani approve my design!! fingers cross..

i know the design wasn't good compare to others but please, just gimme a break..

so i checked my mail today, gosh Alex is really kind..

he really help me out with my dolphin thinggy =)

haha how i wish all the lectures are the same..

he said that my info is not enough, and he hope that my design can help me to bring everything up..

haizzz, i wish i can make him proud of me!!

loosing time..

do i have enough time? i asked my friend.
he replied, why not? all you have to do is, 1 week sleep less than 5 hours!! i'm sure your time is more than enough =)
LoLx..
am i going to do that? i questioned myself..
NO, i'm not gonna do that!! i'm not sure for the future, but now no..
i will never do that..

i called Tze yesterday, i asked her am i being selfish if i'm not aiming for D/H.D.. she told me not to bother too much about the marks, just do whatever i have to do.
i tried to recall what Shivani told me the other day, i questioned myself again..
do i really wanna follow everything she said just to get good grades? i mean like what Rifan said, this is gonna be OUR ARTWORK, its gonna be in OUR PORTFOLIO not Shivani's or other.. ITS OURS!!
so why not we do something we like instead of following what she wants??
by the way, if i follow everything she wants will i 100% get a D/H.D?? no one know, at least if now i'm not getting a D/H.D that's my consequences or maybe that's my fault.. i have no one to blame.
do i make sense?

it's kinda surprising when Rifan told me he's tired of the publication subject, cause it's all about InDesign!!
his favorite!! hahaha..
i think is because of Shvani? she wants us to follow her..
we are actually doing what she like now instead of what we like.. i feel boring~~~
not as interesting as it used to be? hmm
anyway, i'm gonna finish everything by this week and get my things print.. i have no time to waste on this particular subject..
it's too unfair for the rest if my subjects~~

i have this production class today, gosh i really feel like crying!!
imma so fucking lost now, Andrew!! can you tell me what you want?? stop confusing me...
last week you said i did a great job and this week you said you don't like the idea..
WHAT YOU WANT ME TO DO?!
you're scaring me.. i have only 2 weeks left and you still rejecting my idea, i am really lost..
to be honest, i don't really like my idea too, but at least can you gimme a better idea instead of doing brochure??
i need idea not rejection!! at least lead me, tell me something so i can figure it out myself??..
brochure is too normal~~~

late celebration

thank you Tze, Ben, Felix and Rex for celebrating my birthday with me although is already pass..

hahaa, kinda sad tho cause WanTeng, Jack and Sara couldn't make it ='(

but anyway thankss guys..

so we went to Papparich for dinner XD

one word, disappointed cause the food wasn't that nice today, my dry curry mee is super duper salty!! @.@"

tonight was super cold, so we decided to go for a hot coffee..

i had a cup of cappuccino,  end up sleeping late..

i called sister, and we talked for more than 2 hours!! gosh, i did not touch my work at all.

the purpose of having cappuccino is to stay up late to do my work but haha, who cares~~~

anyway thanksss guys for the lovely night =)

giving up.

i hate the feeling of being reject, and i don't wanna be reject!!

it hurts when your lecturer said things that's sarcastic, but the things he said was right..

i didn't do well in this subject!!

honestly, i'm giving myself up.. do you know how tired am i??

i wonder when was the last time i'm actually enjoying myself??

are all those smiley face really happy or it's just a simple smile without any meaning??

god knows..

i need a shoulder, i want to cry..

but who's there?? i don't see anyone that i can rely on.. i don't feel like anyone can understands me.. (but they always said "i understand your feeling")

sorry, i don't think so, cause the way you relied does not click!!

where are my friends?? eventually, do i have friends?? at least one??

nah, people like me don't deserve to have a friend i guess..

after that 3 hours class, i stayed back to talk to Alex..
he told me not to be stress, i was like what the fuck..

LoLx, i have only 2 weeks more to go and i'm not on track, how can i be not STRESSED?!!

are you fucking kidding me??

thank god he was so kind, he gave me his personal e-mail and he asked me to get through him by that e-mail..

haiz, at least he's kind?? not really helping tho..

Shivani is another problematic lecturer, she just can't understand what does it mean by i have not enough of time!!

she keeps asking me to illustrate the pictures and she said that it's not that hard right?!

LoLx, i know that it's not hard.. but do you know that how long does it consume to path all that picturesssss?? are you crazy?? you think i have a year time to complete my 4subjects?? hello i'm not super woman okay..

gimme a break please..

you thought i don't want my work to be H.D?? you thought i don't want my work to look nice??

damn..

enough of complains, it's the fact.. it won't change ='(

anyway, i've received 3 birthday cards today..
thank guys, you cheer me up!!

especially i received the things i like..

haha..

mummy and daddy sent me a card too!! that's the best gift ever =)

10.05.2012

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME =)

woke up this afternoon, and i can hear my phone buzzing..

peopooool sending me messages wishing me happy birthday, buahahha.. it's so fun, like a boss!!

well, daddy was the first one who wished me cause he said he afraid that he'll forget ='[

haha, but it's sweet tho cause he send me a picture of a cake with a number "2"

yes daddy, i get what you mean, you're trying to say no matter how old am i, i am forever your baby girl right?? hahaha..

thanks daddy!!

mummy send me a message last night too =)

super sweet right?? i don't know why kaken keep complaining about mummy's message..
i guess he's jealous of me, cause i have a cute cute mummy!!

hahaha, just kidding!!

so yeah, today is my big day so what did i do for my big day..

well, i'm sitting on the same spot, wearing my warm warm knit hat start taking a cute picture of myself.. hahaha

just kidding, i know i looked ugly ='(

yes yes, I'm doing this the whole day!! i know it's not the best, i'm still working on it okay XD

hahaha..

i didn't celebrate my birthday today, cause i'm having presentation tomorrow, have to get my things done as you know that birthday is not "dai sai", does it make sense?

and thanks to all the 100++ people who wished me!! i am really happy and appreciate what you guys did.. haha

i wish i can hug each and everyone of you!!

damn, I LOVE YOU GUYS!!

haha =)

once again thank you my dear friendsss!!..

stress to the max..

owh my, what a day >.<"

went to bed at 3am++ last night and woke up at 11.40am today, that's bad..

i'm lack of sleep, need to rest more!!

assignments are really killing me, 3 more weeks to go and then i'll be a degree holder =)

GOSH what am i suppose to do?? work kept rejected by the lectures..

you see me laughing outside, but i'm actually crying deep in my heart.

i'm so lost, and i couldn't complain to anyone..

i am afraid that people will compare the previous results and the coming ones..

FEAR, SAD, STRESS..

what else ='[

but after all these end, i will become..