loosing time..

do i have enough time? i asked my friend.
he replied, why not? all you have to do is, 1 week sleep less than 5 hours!! i'm sure your time is more than enough =)
LoLx..
am i going to do that? i questioned myself..
NO, i'm not gonna do that!! i'm not sure for the future, but now no..
i will never do that..

i called Tze yesterday, i asked her am i being selfish if i'm not aiming for D/H.D.. she told me not to bother too much about the marks, just do whatever i have to do.
i tried to recall what Shivani told me the other day, i questioned myself again..
do i really wanna follow everything she said just to get good grades? i mean like what Rifan said, this is gonna be OUR ARTWORK, its gonna be in OUR PORTFOLIO not Shivani's or other.. ITS OURS!!
so why not we do something we like instead of following what she wants??
by the way, if i follow everything she wants will i 100% get a D/H.D?? no one know, at least if now i'm not getting a D/H.D that's my consequences or maybe that's my fault.. i have no one to blame.
do i make sense?

it's kinda surprising when Rifan told me he's tired of the publication subject, cause it's all about InDesign!!
his favorite!! hahaha..
i think is because of Shvani? she wants us to follow her..
we are actually doing what she like now instead of what we like.. i feel boring~~~
not as interesting as it used to be? hmm
anyway, i'm gonna finish everything by this week and get my things print.. i have no time to waste on this particular subject..
it's too unfair for the rest if my subjects~~

i have this production class today, gosh i really feel like crying!!
imma so fucking lost now, Andrew!! can you tell me what you want?? stop confusing me...
last week you said i did a great job and this week you said you don't like the idea..
WHAT YOU WANT ME TO DO?!
you're scaring me.. i have only 2 weeks left and you still rejecting my idea, i am really lost..
to be honest, i don't really like my idea too, but at least can you gimme a better idea instead of doing brochure??
i need idea not rejection!! at least lead me, tell me something so i can figure it out myself??..
brochure is too normal~~~