"LOST"

a place where full off white walls..
nothin thr..
its so empty..
i'm so alone in no where..
i started to fear..

and i started askin myself who am i??
wat m i doin..
i'm so "LOST" >___<"


actually,
i'm wondering should i stop my course?//..
i don't think design suite me..
but if i stop, wat m i gonna study or do?.. @______@"



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my life isn't simple as others >___<"
wat eva i do, i have have 2 b twice better thn others..
y?
b'coz my parent aren't da 1 hu pay my skul fees..
ths is y!!..


beside tht, i dun wana let ppl look down upon me..
in their mind i'm alwayz a loser..
n im tired of tht..
i wana b da out standin 1..
wanna let every1 know actually i'm as smart as others..
i can do it, its juz da matter of whether i want it or not @_____@"


bak to da main thing..
i really stuck wif wat im doin now..
actually how hard could it b?
like wat ppl say:""
degisn oni ma..
wat so difficult??..
put everything 2geta..
blend thm all 2geta..
dats design!!


hello to all those ppl..
u tot its so easy to do so??
yeap its easy to do, but whn come to comments ur stuff will become all bull shit!!
u tot every1 likes it?..
wat is so great bout it??
its not unique n every have differnt feels bout dat bull shit stuff..


well i know im crappin shits now..
but i really do feel angry bout wat da fucker told me..
the words she say is still remains in my mind!!

AND THOSE HU DUNO BOUT DESIGN, PLZ KEEP UR MOUTH SHUT..

BECAUSE U WILL NEVER UNDERSTAND A DESIGNER'S FEELIN!

MoM's Love ^_________^"

when i were 1 year old,
u fed me n bathed me.
i thanked u by crying all nite long..

when i were 2 year old,
u taugh me walk.
i thanked u by runing away when u called..

when i were 3 year old,
u made all ur meals wif love.
i thanked u by tossing the plates on da floor..

when i were 4 year old,
u gave me some crayons.
i thanked u by colouring it on the walls.. (u smack my "si fat", i still remember dat! >________<")

when i were 5 year old,
u dressed me fer goin out shootings wif daddy.
i thanked u by dirtyin da dress..

when i were 6 year old,
u walked i to school.
i thanked her by screaming "I'M NOT GOING!".. (haha during standard 2, u hit me like shit @__@")

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hold it hold it..
how much more i gonna write??
whn i was 8 thn 9 thn 10, 11, 12, 13 n so on??
puff..
its so bladdy long man..
its way to much to write!!//..
n its something dat u cant finish saying in 1 day..

mom's love..
how could i ever repay u??..
i think all i can do is work hard on everythin,
buy u a house "home sweet home" wif gardens [[well i know u neva like big house so i gonna buy u a small small house.. wohoo]]
beside that, if i have kids i'm gonna teach thm wat u taught me..
the things u teach is so.. how to say dat??
erm..
can i say it as "value"??..
haha!!
its true..
she is 1 "best" mom in da world..
no1 can ever replace u..
especially ur love..