i'm an IDIOT

living for more than 21 years in this world yet i still don't know how to differentiate whether the person is true or fake..
what a joke!!

the word "friends"!! << i don't know what does that mean any more, can anyone let me know??
the vows you guys made, it was touch =D
till now i still can remember, but it was just empty words..
it's not as beautiful as it is.
you guys broke your promises, and i'm only the one hanging to it..
hahaha, how sweet!!

yeah, Tiffany was right, all of us grow up.
there's no point holding on to "me", i'm not the only one in the world.
there are like 1000 more over people waiting for them, what the benefits holding on to me?? hahaha
i'm such a naive girl, i thought there the word "FOREVER" in the world, actually there's no such thing =D

have you guys ever take me as a friend??
or i'm just a chauffeur to you guys.. (i wish i can know the answer)
am i being too kind or i'm being too pricey??
am i being too evil or i'm a fucking bitch that have to deserve all the shits??

hello guys, i'm a human too!!
i have feelings, and i don't often show it out.
do i have to write out my feelings on my forehead, just to let you know how i feel?? after being how many years of friend and you can't even notice me for a second..
how HURT and DISAPPOINTED.

sometimes people like me do things for a reason,
but no one seems to understand me.
are you guys really that busy until you don't have time for me??
promise me for something but end up doing things with others??
am i really invincible??
i wanted to know, am i really that bad??
do i really deserve all this shits??
i don't even qualify to be your friend??

what i hate the most is when people said that they understands me..
hello, NO YOU DON'T!!
you guys don't know me, don't act like a bitch saying you know me well, you guys know nothing about me..
especially when i came back from Melbourne!!
NONE OF YOU CAN TELL HOW I'M FEELING..
this is what you guys will never understand, if you wanted to know go there yourself and you'll feel like..

all this while i've been saying no more being "Miss Nice", but i never did it..
from now on, i'll wear a mask to communicate with everyone since you guys want me to be so..
no point being nice to everyone since no one knows how to appreciate it.

I NEVER SAY I AM THE BEST PERSON IN THE WORLD, BUT AT LEAST I NEVER INTEND TO HURT THE PEOPLE AROUND ME!!