hahaha.. should i b hapi or sad?!!

hehe..
i didn't attend my 9am class 2day..
i'm not tired, i'm not late..
but i'm escaping dat class>__________<"
coz i didn't do any of Alex's work!
haha..
wat a good gal am i..
mummy oso no eye see jorhx..
-_________-"


afta my 2pm class v went to buy a table lamp..
thn went to service modem..
no rest..
tired sei me...

_________________________

in da nite went to hong lok psr mlm wif bao yee..
wow,
its been a long time i din meet her adi..
she gone fat..
and she changed again>________________<"

saw a nice casual shirt thr..
so i told her casual wear not bad, n wat she ans me is "if v wear casual, ppl will look down upon us..."
wat the fuk??
now u goin to work or fashion show??

u said da clothes i choose is cheap thn wat bout urs?//..
thy r in da same price..
so u mean the clothes dat u choose oso cheap??
weirdo..
if u wanna look elegant thn dun buy da clothes frm psr mlm lo..
go MnG, Padini, ZARA....
sweat..

i find dat sometimes whn she talk, all her sentence didn't go thru her brain "i mean freeze n think"
ada apa shoot out saja..
u dun have 2 do dat to me..
i won't feel anythin..

CAMRY..

haha..
can u imagine i drove my dad's car CAMRY..
coz he drunk again..
anywayz..
cool man, im so happy..
2nd time drive big car!
haha..
happy sei..


sugoishi ^__________________^"

today baba is so "OMG">_______________<"

baba was so freakin angry juz now...
mayb he's drunk..
but he said he is not..
so i was like...
hmm..
no idea..
haha^.^"

______________________

he horn twice whn he reach home,
b'coz all da carz were blocking in front of our house..
he couldn't get in..
he was so upsad b'coz no1 came out n c wat happen..
n he start scoldin,
keep mumbling@__________@"
haha..
so so so angry..

he said "thy r so bladdy no manners.."
he said "thy r so rude"
he said "horn so many times oso no ppl come out n c wat happen"
he said "dun wake me up to reverse my car, i'm not goin 2 care about them"

i was like >_________<"..
wat happen to baba today..
he is so different today..'
doesn't look like usual,
i think he muz b very very angry,
angry until "no eye c"..
haha..

i can't imagine you are such a good story teller @_______@"

WOW..
i'm damn bladdy shock wif wat u have did..
totally UNBELIEVEABLE..

u said u'll never b like her..
but...
wat's da different between u n her??
isn't it da same?
BACK STABBER!!..

wat i did?
did i offend u, if yes! come foward to tell me..
dun pretand to be so understanding..

U R NOT!!
instead of doin da mature things u did smth which is so bladdy ass hole childish..

hello yilin,
i dun feel embarrassed,i dun feel bad, i dun feel angry, i dun even feel sad..
all i feel is dat u r so fuckin stupid..
coz u did da most stupid thing which is tellin da whole world "YITONG IS SO RUDE"..
dun think dat i duno wat u have said behind me..
i know u well gal..

so wat if u tell them dat i'm rude...
how rude am i?//..
u tell me nahx
HOW RUDE?
i mayb rude, but i did apologise 2 u..
if i did not do dat, than i'm wrong..
but too bad.. i did say sorry..
so how rude can i be??

hahahaha..
i tot we can be very close afta dat stupid "i dunno wat happen" happens..
but, u never change...
u are still da old bladdy fuker yilin..
no, u gone more terrible thn wat i've imagine..
lie ur mom, lie ur frens..
wat more?

u know wat.
in my mind u are alwayz da best but in real u r so shit..
i keep givin u chance..
but u keep goin over n over..

regretz wat u have did las time?//..

wanna start all over again?

ths is all bullshit..

u owayz care bout urself oni..

did u ever care about da person beside u??

NO, NEVER..

all u wan is "syok sendiri"

self happy is all da matter in u..

YES, u mayb very popular now

but how long would it be??

go on, keep bringin ths kinda attitude wif u..

u see wats gonna happen thn..

dun come bak n cry in front of me..

i'm not gonna b there fer u anymore, coz all da wordz u said 2 me are bullshit..

all FAKE,

and all of it is not frm the bottom of ur heart..

go..

keep on usin sweet talkz..

if u continue doin dat, u r juz gonna b ppl's dog!!

____________________________

u said u miss me..

wanna go out wif me..

actually, u really miss me or u juz wanna use me?

do u know dat miss n use me are 2 different things..

haha..

i guess u duno..

actually u wanna go out wif me coz i can b ur driver

drive u here n thr like a "siao po"

u tot i really duno?

blind ones oso know la..

oni i so stupid listen to u..

wat if i ask u 2 do da same thing..

how will u feel??

will u do it..

during standard 6..

u ask thm dun talk 2 me, dun b my fren..

u tot i duno??

u r so bladdy selfish..

u juz wanna win..

so wat?

go and ask thm not 2 fren me la..

i dun even care..

n i dun even need ths kinda frenz..

a true fren will neva gonna listen to wateva da fucker says..

u wana impress melissa so u back stab me..

haha..

wat a good fren u r..

sometimes i din tell u, or dun wana argue wif u doesnt mean dat u are right, win..

or i'm afraid of u!..

is juz dat y "i wanna fight wif a loser"??

embarrassed myself oni..

FROM NOW ON..

ALL UR LETTERS WILL BE IN DA SKY..

I'M NOT GONNA KEEP IT ANYMORE,

BECAUSE ALL DA WORDS U WRITE ARE FAKE..

ITS NOT WAT U REALLY WISH FOR!!

U JUZ WANNA USE ALL THE PPL AROUND YOU..

NO FRIENDS ONI COME AND FIND ME?

HAHA..

FUCK OFF LA..

(つ＾з＾)つ小仪和小逸と( ^ ε ^と)的约会°❤

哇...
真的很久很久没跟我的姐妹丽仪出街了!
真期待>_______<"
算算下，大概都有整整半年...
哈哈..
想不到我依然还有这样的感觉^____^"
真搞笑...

想起以前，我们真的老了很多!..
哈哈..
刚认识她的时候，还以为她是马来婆来的．
还有还有，感觉她是个坏坏の女孩...
因为她每次都参那个死八婆...
怎么知道她竟然还比我乖叻@____@"
还是我的巡察员...
哈哈哈哈...
真的是现在想起都laugh die me..

_____________________________________________

刚才我们谈了很多东西..
开心地，伤心地，无聊地...
就算不好笑，都会笑出来>_____<"
哈哈^___________^"
不知道为什么..
每当和她聊天时都一定会有一种很特别的感觉!!
那种感觉... ...说不出口...
就只有她和我知道!
呵呵...

宝贝小仪..
我希望我们的友情会永久^___________^"
真的真的很喜欢你这个好姐妹...
永不离开!

10-5-1990 ... 11-5-1990
小逸　　　　小仪


HAPPY BBQ DAY 18-10-2009

wat is "love"?!!...

can some1 juz tell me wat is "love"?
or can any1 tell me wat is da meaning of "love"...
i've been thinkin bout it again and again..
but...
i still din get my ans..

he said he love me..
i reject him, and he tell my fren dat he love her...
is dis call love??

he said he love me..
he wanna be wif me..
i din talk 2 him a few days, and he din find me anymore...
is ths wat u call love??

he sid he love me..
he said he wanna take care of me, but in da end v fight fer nothin..
is dis call love??

all tis ques keep appear in my head, how???
how can i give myself a good ans??
can some1 teach me..

i really duno wat to do..
i juz wan a normal life like other..
y ppl can i cant??
why???!!
y isit so unfair to me?
every1 can live happily..
y cant i?!

y am i so different frm others//...