life - by Ana

today i went to SGI (Soka Gakkai International) with Aunty Jen, well it was a wonderful meeting =]
Ana gave us a talk and she told us about what she had gone through for the past 60 years, and i was so impress by her.
she's a tough old lady!!

so, someone asked her a question about "expectation" and "hope" today.
people always get confuse between expectation and hope.
expectation is something you want in return, in the other hand hope is something you encourage yourself to get it..
still confuse??
haha, in the beginning i was confuse as well until Ana explained =]

she told us her "N" years ago story, talking about how she was abuse and torture by the government, how she escape from the jail and how hard her life was after she escape.
she said sometimes she even thought of killing her self!! @.@"
can you imagine how dark her life was?!
what a poor lady ='[
thank god!! someone try to pull her out from the darkness, but Ana did not trust anyone during that time, especially BOYS!!
but, luckily that girl was so nice, she was so patient..
she encourage Ana, and she tried to convince her to join SGI from 1 people to 5 people, slowly to a group and now can you imagine Ana is standing in front of 100 people giving a talk!!
WOW.. is really amazing..
Ana put hope in herself, and that's how she's still alive.
http://www.blogger.com/post-create.g?blogID=4446449893726095789#
to sum up, the more you expect, the more you disappoint.
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after the lovely talk, shopping time XD
today we went to the city, the shopping complex in Aussie is damn different from K.L..
we went to Target again, finally i found my baseball jacket and my mickey mouse sweater =]
bought a betty boo t-shirt for LaiYee and a pair of earing for Carmen..
OMG i forgot to buy my sleeveless.. hmm going back on Monday XD

guess what?! i broke a bracelet while looking one of the bracelet for LaiYee..
LoLx, i run like hell after i broke it XD
i really don't wanna pay for it although it's $15..
hahaha anyway hope they don't recognize me!!

result day!!

the result was out, and.. it's just like what i've imagine earlier~~~
terrible..
i need 1.5 - 2 more points to hit my target, but i just couldn't do it ='[
isit because i checked my result while "pupu-ing" in the toilet? that's why the result is bad? (i know my joke is not funny)

anyway, i'll do it again when i go back to K.L
this is not what i want, this is not my level!!
i know i can do much more better than this, YEAH i can..
so, besides the sad result, i bought myself a $40 oxford shoe and a $5 superman tee-shirt =]

LoLx, looks like i'm enjoying huh??!
yes yes, i do. i am enjoying myself here, cause i couldn't get any shirts or pants in K.L because of my lovely fucking size and height XD
but now i can wear M size tee-shirts here, SUPER COOOL =]

Bought a present for Carmen and received my early 21st birthday present from E-Ma XD i hope Carmen like her present, cause i really have no idea what to buy for her coming 19th birthday, and as for LaiYee, still looking!!
i wonder what can i get for her..
she's a very...(i have no idea) so it's not easy to get a thing for her, especially 21st birthday present..

well was talking to LaiYee just now, i asked what she wants as her birthday present, and she asked me back the same question..
LoLx..
seriously, i have no idea what i want!!
perfume, watch, bags, accessories.. err totally no idea =[
by the way what can you get me?! hahaha.
she said she wants a Carlorino bag, and i was like WHAT CARLORINO AGAIN?!!!
ain't tired of carlorino, keep carlorino.. hahaha
i think i gonna get her a purse, cause her purse SUCK!!

well well, we'll see how, tomorrow going down to city to SHOP again XD
hopefully i can get something unusual for LaiYee.. =]

WAITING..

IELTS is over..
and now i'm waiting for the result to come out..
i'm super nervous. i don't think i did well ='[
and i think i'm going to fail for the exam..
haiz..
uncle Lawrence putting too much hope on me, he expect me to get band7..
WTF, you think i'm what??
my english is not that good, and i don't think i can even get band5
1 word "WORRY"

relationship? nah..

a lot of people ask me this question..
"do you have a boyfriend?"
NO, i don't have a boyfriend.
but why? you so pretty sure have boyfriend one..



LoLx, is there anything to do with pretty and boyfriend?? @.@"
pretty = got boyfriend??
got boyfriend = pretty??
what kind of philosophy is this??
hahaha..
well i really don't understand, they never see me before how can they judge me by picture?? -.-"

anyway talking about boyfriend..
i really never though of getting back in any relationship.
it's so tiring, every single day have to worried about him, wondering what he's doing, is he feeling well, did he eat a proper meal, who is he hanging out with, and so on...
this kinda stuff, really makes people headache.
the most scary part is when i suddenly become the third party..

having a boyfriend is not an easy thing, it's like having a baby.
you have to plan, to decide, to calculate, and bla bla bla..
so many stuff to do.

i really don't wanna put my life in a risk, getting hurt for 4 times is more than enough =D
and i really wanna enjoy my lonely life.
err not really lonely, at least i still have my friends =]

talking about friend..
i'll continue it tomorrow..

IELTS exam

IELTS exam is like 5 more days from now @.@"
and i'm still playing and relaxing..
wootz, this is not goood!!


big smile on face, pretending to be calm.
but honestly i'm scared like hell ='[
wishing for miracle, praying for miracle..
hopes that there's really a MIRACLE =]

i wanted to shout and say "I CAN DO IT"
by the way can i really do it?? ='[