i never know that fake smile could be so beautiful.

how's my new hair look? do i look pretty?
am i getting girly? do i look like a "real" girl now?!
LoLx..
look at my SMILE, so big and FAKE..
yes it is a FAKE SMILE, a real fake smile.
i just don't know how to smile anymore, can anyone make me smile?
CAN YOU?!

every time you called, really pissed me off.
i'm sorry that i'm being rude and showing you my temper, but excuse me can you let me make my own decision for once?!
i really wanna do the right decision and not the one you do for me!!
please, i'm old enough to use my brain to do a right, wise decision.
i'll be responsible for what i did, this is only the right way to let me grow and be independent, NOT ASKING ME TO GO MELBOURNE TO STAY ALONE..
that doesn't help at all..

everyday putting pressure on me, asking me to score 8.0 for IELTS.
why why why?? my english is not that good.
even 6.5 is a problem now!!
i'm going crazy, really crazy..
you even made me feel like saying "FUCK OFF you idiot, stop putting pressure on me"

hey, i know my level.
i know what i want.
it will be great if you give me advice or opinion, but please DO NOT ASK ME WHAT TO DO.
you wanna ask yet you wanna choose, so what's the point of asking??
since you don't even respect my decision, it's better you make the decision for me, and fuck off =]
i'll be grateful for that!!

BLAME BLAME BLAME..
every time blaming without fail, you don't even respect me!!
scolding me "STUPID LA YOU" in front of hundreds of people, I'M A GIRL, I HAVE PRIDE!
have you ever thought of my feeling??
that day, you really made me HATE you, you were lucky that that day wasn't my birthday, otherwise I DON'T KNOW WHAT WILL I SAID.
it may be something really bad, i can't promise..

in you eyes i might be a "tofu" girl, but sorry to say I'M NOT!!

p/s: i'm sorry that i was being rude about complaining and using so many vulgar words. I REALLY CAN'T TAKE IT ANYMORE..