SEX so IMPORTANT?? >.<"

what is sex?!

Sex has no intrinsic Meaning.

The desire to give sex meaning is an understandable, important enterprise. Honestly approached, it can be a valuable exercise; disguised as the righteous desire to simply appreciate the meaning sex has, or as the pursuit of restoring sex's "true" meaning, it is a common source of conflict for both individuals and society.
Sex only has meaning insofar as we experience it. Its meaning is emergent, not objective. We discover the meaning of sex each time we are sexual, meaning that only resides in our experience. The meaning of sex changes--is reinvented--each time we are sexual.

i wanted to know, is sex really so important to boys??
yesterday 1 of my friend talk to me, she said that Mr.X is a fucker.
i was shock because Mr.X is also my friend.
so i ask her why do she say so?
she said he is a sex maniac. >_______<"
Oh My..
i feel it's kinda insulting at first. why she say something like that. than she said Mr.X find her few weeks ago asking for recover BUT only for SEX??! and he said you YOU need SEX you CAN COME AND FIND ME..
what the fuck??
i was like.. HUH?? Mr.X ACTUALLY SAY SOMETHING LIKE THAT?? i really can't imagine..
because this girl, she is a great story maker..
so all i can do is just listen.
in truth I DON'T BELIEVE BOTH OF THEM..

so about sex..
is it really that IMPORTANT in our life beside wanna have baby @___@"
why all the youngster doing it??
when the girls pregnant, they go abortion -.-"
so evil..
i remember few years ago, a lot of "S.H" asked me am i still virgin. >_______<"
what the fuck?? you got no other question to ask?? ask something stupid like this, your mama didn't teach you what is personal??
never mind, now they ask you did sex before?? >_______<"
DENG DENG DENG DENG DENG~~~~~!!
really "S.H"
you know what they say?
SEX VERY NORMAL ONLY MA, IF YOU REALLY LOVE YOUR BF YOUR SURE GIVE HIM DE..
what??
LOVE HIM SO I HAVE TO GIVE HIM??
there are so many ways to LOVE A PERSON, not only SEX can build a couple relationship!!
how can the people think of this kinda of shit thing..
SO IF YOU GF/BF DIDN'T GIVE YOU SEX WHICH MEANS THEY DON'T LOVE YOU?
what a BULLSHIT..

the SUNDAY..

wake up quite early this morning, just for "singing K" at Pavilion Red Box Plus..
OMG,
today is just the perfect day to sleep.
nice weather..
too bad, have to move my ass from the bed..
anyway reach there around 12.
seriously, i don't really like to "sing K" >______<"
maybe is that i don't have a good voice, but my friends and cousin always say "not bad mahx"..
haha, don't have to lie me!! i can hear it on my own..
really sucks..
we sang till 3p.m than it wrote there bye bye which means we have to leave the room now..
>________<"
haha, than we went to J.J at Wangsa Maju just to eat a piece of cake at Secret Receipt..
hoho, my brother ate two piece of cheese cake oriel cheese and 1 more forget what cheese already, my cousin ate a piece of chocolate cheese cake.
OMG, it's so rich. not my taste hahaha, and i myself have a piece of chocolate fudge and a plate of spaghetti, because i ate nothing the whole morning. (i getting fat >.<")
after my so call lunch, went home had a piece of cup cake baked by Alicia and start XDO-ing, facebook and MSN.
this is my whole week's life.
boring? yea.. very
daddy also don't wanna go out lorhx, what do you expect?
as usual, open the fridge. saw a plate of mangoes. (mango pulut?!)
my granny brought it back from Bangkok airline i guess. not sure >_______<"
darn it,
never had mango as sweet as it before.
really nice, ate the whole plate. well i eat again LoLx..
than around 7 something in the evening, we had our dinner in the house.
you could hardly see us eating in the house on Sunday night.
today "bai ti kong" that is why we ate in the house.
have a bowl of congee with some eggs and vegetable.. haha again i EAT!!!!!!~~~
LoLx,
just can't stop from EATing..
i help my mum preparing all the foods for the gods
and around 10 something they start praying already..
than pray pray pray..
pray for having good grades in my coming and final exam so i can go oversea for my further studies.
GET a PR and stay there, NEVER come back to this sad place..
nah~~~ just wish for it only, i know that it won't happen de larhx, anyway just like what my dad said "Malaysia is a PARADISE country, you can't get this kinda life in other country"
yea i guess so!!~~
haha..
well, finish praying also almost 12.30a.m,
clean the stuff, wash myself also 2a.m already..
tired..
ohya miss out something Aiko Lui is dead >.<"
so sad T.T"
why is both of my fishie dead??..
BAD LUCK only T___T"
by the way, it's late at night now, gonna sleep soon
LUCKILY my tomorrow's 10a.m Domny's class is cancel, if not i really gonna ponteng or late for class..
haha..

THANK GOD~~~

what if we never met?

WHY?!
why can't you cherish or treasure me when we are a couple?!
why can't you treat me as good as last time? T___T"
why do you scold me in vulgar words when we are a couple?!!!
why do you always put the blame on me?..
i don't deserve it, okay?!
whenever we break up, you will say that you are sorry for not being a good boyfriend, or you'll said that sorry that you use the wrong way to love me..
no!!
all of these are excuse..
you never even take an effort to love me, or to understand what i really want.
or i should say i gave you too many chance, so after we break you thought that i'll give you chance again??
sorry.
NOT anymore~~
it's enough of being stupid girl.
ask yourself how many chance i gave you..
it's more than 2 times..
people say once is a mistake, twice is stupidity.. and i've cross the stupidity line..
that day you told me, you don't want me to walk alone you wanna hold my hand again, do what a boyfriend should do, bring me shopping..
it's too late..
you should do it before we break, not after we break.
and you said something which is very stupid. what do you mean by "i always like that de, when i have it i don't know how to treasure until it's gone"
HELLO??!
don't tell me every time you also don't know..
and please stop saying that you wanna test me, there is nothing to test for a real couple.
you always say "whatever", now i say "forget it" also a problem?
you can say what ever you want but i can't?
what a bull shit..
you asked me "why can't you settle things by calming down?"
yes you are right, i can't calm down.
don't know why i feel hatred when ever you force me to something which i don't like and how you expect me to calm down when you putting all the fault on me?
what you really want me to do?
actually what kinda girlfriend you want?
do you know?
or you just want someone to be your girl cause now you're single.
you know how hurt it is whenever you ask for recover?
i feel so scare because i still LOVE you..
i really really miss you.
till now i still can't let go.
when will you only love me like how you love me in the beginning??
haha..
asking stupid question >___<"
probably you yourself also don't know..
what if we never met back, will it be better for you and me?

~~~ can you make sure whether you love me or not and make sure you have the time for me only come back to me??
don't waste you and my time arguing something which is stupid..
>________<"


a bottle of alcohol a day, bring my sadness away..

*ATTENTION (2)!!" [[18+]]

hmm..
this post is gonna be all my pictures that i've taken on the day of chinese new year..
i'm not going to post in on my friendster nor facebook cause someone said that i'm acting cute..
so better not scare people off, so i just decide to post it here as a memories..
well to those have heart attacks, pregnant or what ever..
PLEASE do not see this..
it may scare you off >___________<"
all photos are edited!!

















more will be upload soon..

the analysis result of "ME"

Dear Mis Didy, below are your Personality Tests result:

Who is your true self: You like privacy very much because you enjoy spending time with your own thoughts. You like to disappear when you cannot find solutions to your own problems, but you would feel better if you learned to share your thoughts with a person you trust.
Your view on yourself:
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : You are down-to-earth
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : People like you because you are so straightforward
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking:
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : You are a true romantic
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : When you are in love
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : You will do anything
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Everything to keep your love true
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship
The seriousness of your love:
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : You like to flirt
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Behave seductively
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : The opposite sex finds this very attractive
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : That's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?
Your views on education:
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Education is very important in life
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : You want to study hard
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Learn as much as you can
The right job for you:
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : You need to choose something
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Go for it to be happy
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Achieve success
How do you view success:
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Nothing will stop you from trying
What are you most afraid of:
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : You are afraid of things that you cannot control
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel

too serious >.<"

I just called Anita the online Psychic to know my future (facebook)
and Anita said:
''Didy sweetheart, remember - don't take life too seriously. You may sometimes find yourself trying too hard to please others, especially romantically. Listen to the heartfelt advice a love one gives you.''

にっきわ死んでいる

OMG..
really broken heart T.t"
just woke up and my mom like shouting "ehh, your Nikki not moving! die already izzit??"
i'm like What The??!"
i just took picture with Nikki yesterday, still okay de arhx..
than she say "didi also having same problem"
haiz..
why??! why you leave Aiko alone??!
sad..
R.I.P dear Nikki

*ATTENTION!!" [[18+]]

among these 6 days holiday, today is the worse day i ever had >.<"
super duper BOOOORING!!
T________T"
so i edit some of my picture that i took last night and decided to share it in this post >______<"
err..
in this few photos you will see me look different which is i grow <---> side ways..

*ATTENTION!!"
my picture may scare you off, so to those have heart attack or easily vomit "PLEASE" don't see..
haha.

the stupid guy

erm..
thanks Mr. XXXXXX XXX, you really cheer me up and makes me feel happy whenever i'm down..
you really help me a lot.
when that IDIOT push me into the deep dark hole, you are the one who pulls me out from there although there's some failure.
but it really means a lot to me ^______^"
well i really appreciate what you have done.
and you know what..
you really sucks, haha why??
cause whenever you ask me "got anyone kacau you mou?" surely that IDIOT message me on the spot >.<"
your mouth damn smelly..
how long you didn't brush you teeth huh??!
haha..

erm, you message me just now asking me "you are serious to kao me??"
i'm like..
err, it's that so important?
by the way i admit that i like you as a friend, but couple??.. errrrrr not now.
and you also not desperate to have a girlfriend so why do you ask!!
haha..

sometime you really make me hate you..
you actually do care about me de, but why do you pretand like nothing happen..
i mean as a friend you care bout each other is normal and i saw what you write in your msn p.m.
i'm not blind, or maybe i just think too much that p.m is for someone who is special to you.
____________ urgh =X
forget it..

anyway, i'm happy to have you as a friend.
and thanks for being my BBF(Best Boy as a Friend)..
LoLx >.<"

Not feeling well T.T"

not feeling well this few days..
i got no cough no flu no headache no fever no backache but i got a very bad stomachache >.<"
shit!!
how can this stupid pain come during Chinese New Year?? which means i cannot eat much>.<"
__________ urgh
i hate my stomach =X

by the way, this few days i don't feel that i'm in the Chinese New Year mood..
sooooo BORING!!
went to Hakka Restaurant for dinner just now, was with my parents and "dua ko and ko diun" (dad's sister and her husband)
okay we had a very simple dinner cause most of them are sick >.<" but they had a lot of brandy..
wow~~
haha..
well i guess that's all for today "chor 3"..
sweet..

幸福热气球 .

被点到了～

let's start~~


规则：

① 被点者请在自己的网志上打上答案

② 请传给另外十个人

③ 传阅人请在这十位被点的人的留言板上通知他，他被点咯!

④ 这当中的十位不得拒绝

⑤ 被点者请注明被谁点了在哪里接到再传给下十位

⑥ 这些被点名者，你们被点会祝福

⑦ 不可回点哦，并且愿望会实现和得到幸福坐上幸福热气球，开始咯


幸福热气球：第一阶段

① 绰号：小弟 .

② 星座：金牛座 .

③ 生日：1990年5月10日 .

④ 兴趣：赚钱 .

⑤ 血型：我好像.. 不知道 .

⑥ 最宝贵的东西：家人 , 朋友 , 爱人 .

⑦ 最討厭的东西：被骗 , 被背叛 , 被丢下 .


幸福热气球：第二阶段

① 有喜欢的人吗：家人和朋友 .

② 有交往吗：没有 .

③ 幸福吗：有 , 都是家人给的 .

④ 他很爱你吗：没有 , 我不觉得 .

⑤ 如果你有勇气最想是什么：做我平时都不敢做的东西 .


幸福热气球：第三阶段

① 你被谁点：只有一个 , 我老公小爸 .

② 他是你的谁：我的老公 .

③ 他的个性是：很可爱 , 讨人喜欢 .

④ 他长得怎样：超级帅和可爱 .

⑤ 跟他认识多久：应该要三年了吧 .

⑥ 你想跟他说什么：谢谢你那么勇敢交了我这个朋友 .

⑦ 如果他变成你的情人：不可能吧 >__<" .


福热气球：第四阶段

① 最爱的音乐：R n B , 我能感觉到的 .

② 最爱的季节：冬天 .

③ 最爱的卡通：很多哦 . 数不完 .

⑤ 最想去的国家：日本 , 韩国 , 台湾 , 全世界 .

⑥ 最爱的水果：全部都喜欢 .

⑦ 最爱的饮料：很多呐 .

⑧ 最爱的人：家人 , 朋友 , 爱人 .


幸福热气球：第五阶段

① 你很爱哭吗：我是爱哭鬼 . 我很情绪化 .

② 你很爱笑吗：超级 .

③ 你是很有信心的人吗：不算是也不算不是 .

④ 你想要怎样的生活：有钱 , 有爱 , 没烦恼 .

⑤ 你喜欢自己吗：不是很喜欢自己的身型罢了 . 其它都很满意 . 尤其是高度 .

⑥ 你喜欢音乐吗：非常 .

⑦ 你喜欢体育吗：恩恩 .

⑧ 你喜欢跳舞吗：还好 . 现在跳不动了 .

⑨ 你很专情吗：恩 .

⑩ 你喜欢睡觉吗：我的最爱 .

Ⅰ 你喜欢唱歌吗：还蛮喜欢的 .


福热热气球：第六阶段开始点名

① Yumiko .

② 小鱼儿 .

③ Kim .

④ Mike Dan .

⑤ Kyoko .

⑥ Amy .

⑦ Jane .

⑧ Boey .

⑨ Gyioer .

⑩ Yang .


「五号跟谁谈恋爱」 我吗?! 哈哈 .

「一号是男的还是女的」女子 .

「六号人很好吗」不错 .

「九号很色吗」不知道 .

「七号跟三号在一起吗] 她们不认识呐 .

「八号是单身吗] 我印象中好像不是 .

「十号喜欢一号吗」他们也不认识哦 .

「五号读那间学校」忘记了 .

「六号喜欢谁」麻辣家族咯 . 哈哈 .

「二号喜欢唱歌吗」不知道 .

「你爱七号吗] 不爱 >__<" .

「三号住哪] 不知道 .

「十号跟你告白」不可能 . 他是我弟弟! .

「四号有宠物吗」好像没有 . 不清楚 .


如果你有三个愿望，Tell me your wish :

①我希望下一世我家人还是我家人 .

②带家人离开这里 .

③我是个成功的人 .




END

a Valentine Gift for "Lao Gong"

"Lao Gong", one best person i've ever met>.<"
a person who really sit there wasting her tome to listen all my problems.
a person who willing to share opinion with me.
a person who understand my attitude very well.
a person who never gets mad at me when i show temper.
a person who is really kind.
erm, just an address>.<" not really husband..
haha..

as you guys know, i could harldy communicate with girls beside lai yee..


i don't know why, she's the second girl i could actually share my problems, web cam with her. i mean i do web cam with people la, but than not everyone could see me through web cam seriously. she is the most often one..
haha..
too bad she's in another state,
if not i think we could hang out everyday-.-"
haha..

actually in this post, i would like to post up my appreciation to her..
in my heart she is a pretty as this drawing..


i mean of course "Lao Gong" looks better la..
haha..
actually she really help me a lot, and she also changed my point of view..
really thanks my dear..

_______________________________

okay,
sometimes people think that i'm her..
NO!!
i'm x.Didy, she is x.Dad..
i'm 小妈, she is 小爸..
( .^____^. )"V
hope all of you don't make it wrong anymore..
haha..


x.Dad


x.Didy

"Lao Gong" seriously, i really enjoy every moment of us being together..
although we are not a couple, but than as a net friend, i really like you.
and i hope you can be my forever best friend as i wish^^"
haha..

our crazy moments >.<"



she's playing XDO, her serious look>.<"


she is super duper cute, love this look so much^^"


this is the way she rub her eye, so special>.<"









hope that we could really come out to take picture together^^"
just can't wait for the day..

"Lao Gong" i LOVE you =3
hehe =X

“ifeel” Magazine =X

i was so boring until i almost crazy,
so i went to find few of my magazine to read, or i should say "just flip" to see the images..
"ifeel" magazine, hoho December 2009 -.-"
a few of my friends and i were on the magazine..
i almost forget about this..
haha..
well, our picture were there promoting our hand phones.. haha, really feel so stupid when i look back myself..
haha..
well, i remember "7zai" (the person who ask us to join) ask few of us to give our pictures, but only 9 person were chosen..
1) Edwin, S.E K800
2) KK, S.E K880i
3) Ah Gong, Nokia 6680
4) Boey, S.E K660
5) Yumiko, Nokia N95
6) x.Dad, S.E W910
7) Kyoko, S.E W580
8) Hito, IMAC phone (he really rich >.<")
9) x.Didy (me -.-"), Nokia E71

haha.
among 9 of us, "Lao Gong"(x.Dad), and me are the most unlucky one >.<"
the wrote our name wrongly..
suppose to be 小爸 they write 小巴, 彤彤 or 一筒 they write 桐桐..
but my granny say "good larhx, so no people know who are you" hahaha, but.. but.. who likes people to write wrong their name de?? T.t"
never mind.
well, i still remember when December, 2009 the magazine were publish, someone called "Lao Gong" saying that we were on the magazine -.-"
LoLx, what is so weird about that?? since the day you gave me the photo of yours you should know that you will appear on the magazine lo..
wakakaka..
but it's also good to see they are happy when their face shown up in the magazine^^"
haha..

okay here are the few pictures i have >.<"
only leng lui's picture(don't include me)
if wanna see more buy "ifeel" magazine December, 2009 de larhx..
if don't have nevermind, ask your friend..
haha =X











hoho..
memories =3

I WISH..

do you think i can change myself??!
boyish look to a girlish look @_______@"
from fat turns into slim?
from coward turns into brave?
from lonely turns into full of love?
from sad become happy?
blah blah blah, so many things.

i wish i could be a slim, tall, smart, pretty girl..
hoho..

Class Cancelled.

wake up early in the morning today..
cause of the stupid MSN nudge >.<"
kanasai Malacca Zai..
darn it..
he wanna play revenge for replying in his blog i think @.@"
LoLx..
so tired ( X.X )", really wish that i could have more sleep..
nevermind..
luckily he did that, if not i'm gonna sit on my bed swinging and be late for class again..
as usual, brush my teeth, wash my face, take a shower, comb my hair, dress myself and back to the lappy..
haha..
well this morning, no sun >.<"
feel cold..
really wish that i could stay in my bed, but too bad have to attend domny's class CIP..
shit really damn annoying man, why must this subject replace on today? still 9am class..
can't it replace on other day like thursday or friday at 10??
really..
urghx_____________ =X
damn it damn it damn it..
fine fine,
since i've already move my ass, than forget about it..
when i reach school..
haha, no one is there, they said traffic jam worhx
teacher also late 10 minutes already>.<"
haha..
during the class, i yawn every 20 minutes..
sorry to be so rude, but i really really tired, i sleep only 4-5 hours, what do you expect..
now writing this log i also yawn a few times already -.-"
erm okay, class end at 11am, went for lunch with SF babies..
kinda rush, cause class start at 12pm later..
hoho..
walk half way, priscilla receicved a message from Mr.Kenny saying "class cancel today!!"
i'm like "what the??!"
i wake up so early this morning just to attend that two classes but than, 1 of the class is cancel..
darn it..
i should have stay at home and sleep like a pig >.<"
sorry, i'm No.1 lazy girl..
hahaha..
Kian Hui was like so happy shouting "YAY, NO CLASS!" on the street..
haha..
by the way, i'm just use to it..
Mr.Kenny's class will cancel any moment de..
haha..
i'm so free now..
nothing to do, just blogging and facebook-ing >.<"
i hate it..
never like to stay here..
Dad's OFFICE >.<"
went downstairs to help, they say no no..
where dare to ask you to help??
hello, i'm also a human..
just because i'm "Si Tao Lui" than i cannot help de??
ahFong jiejie not here, really sienz..
if not i will be very busy helping out at downstairs..
2nd Floor, which means office..
looks like a hell to me although there are so many snacks or i can online here, but so many eyes were like looking at me>.<"
yer, don't feel comfortable at all..
MUMMY YOU FASTER REACH LARHX, I WANNA GO HOME "NOW"..

don't FULL STOP me..

FULL STOP..
this word, you just can't stop saying..
why why why??
is that so fun to full stop people? and what's fun of full stopping people?
it's so rude..
and you are just escaping the facts that people saying or whatever..
i just want you to listen how i feel, what is it so hard?
you think by saying "enough, full stop." is so cool?
NO, it's just hurting..
all you care is just your own feeling, than what about mine?
since when you become so selfish?
and seriously, i don't appreciate the way you treat me..
what if i do the same thing to you, what would you feel >_________<"
why can't you think of the feeling before you did it to people.
and, don't make any promise to me, or tell me any bull shit stuff..
you are the one who put me aside, not i dump you, or dump you again -.-"
and.. just stop putting all the blame on me..
and i need respect as well..
don't ever treat a girl as a slave, do this do that.
they are also human!!
i don't need you to hold my hand anymore..
i don't need you to protect me from the thunderstorms..
you can let go my hand for now..
i can walk on my own, without any people's help..
i know which is the correct way for me..
i will hide when there is thunderstorms..
i'm a grown up girl..
i can take care of myself already..
and please don't ask for the second chance again..
for now, i really can't give myself a reason why should i give you the chance..
or should i say no matter how many chance i give you, you will also never appreciate it..

you are old enough to think, what you should do and what you shall not do..
chance, you will never get it every time, but when you have it, what you did??!
ask yourself..
don't blame others..

Mr. ( .X____x. )"

aiks..
Mr.xxxx you arhx..
i also don't know how to say you already..
yesterday you told me she bla bla bla, and the next day you were like so close to her..
what you want de??
you both are like couples to me and you telling me that you both are not -.-"
wanna make me blur also not this way la..
if you really likes her than you mer be with her lo..
couple only ma, what is the big deal?
you don't have to pretand in front of me, I DON'T CARE at all..
you will only get hurt from her, not me, i won't feel anything de..
hahaha..
well, since you are not happy with so many things about her, than why you still wanna be so close to her?
since you think that she is playing you why you wanna be so close to her?
since she you think that she is lying your feeling than why you still wanna be close to her?
since you said that you have no more feel towards her why still so close to her?
all this question, ask yourself..
don't come and tell me things about her and the next step you go find her again.
that is your problem, not hers..

I'm Melancholy.

You are a deep ocean and just as violent. You are emotional and thoughtful, artistic and musical. Even if you don't draw or play an instrument, art and music play a big part in your life. You are talented and creative. You are philosophical and poetic. Sometimes that me...ans you create a piece of art or poetry, and sometimes it means you have a new idea or a new way of approaching something. You are always an original. You underestimate yourself and are sensitive. You put others before yourself. You feel their pain. When someone has a problem, they come to you. Not to solve it, but to cry with them. You are analytical and conscientious. Even with all this analysis you are idealistic. You appreciate beauty. You see things others miss, and can feel a problem coming like a chill before the rain. You are orderly and organized and strive for perfection in everything you do. You value things, people, resources. You are very focused on the details. You make friends cautiously and the friends you have are few and very close to you. You are very faithful and devoted. You value loyalty and can become resentful if betrayed. You seek out special people who see your depth and beauty and they travel with you for long friendships. You have a deep concern for other people and will listen to their complaints. People rely on you. Introvert: The Resident Genius.

my big MISTAKE

i'm tired..
just do what ever you want..
i thought you are someone who i can count on, but it turns up this way..
amazing..
i really a damn fucking girl..
but there is 1 thing, i really love you before..
not playing..